I wake up to you...but I still miss you.

You're everywhere.

No words can take away my pain, my anguish, my torture, from not having you here. I miss you more than ever imaginable. No one knows this of course. But I do. Everyone looks at me, and just assumes that I am okay. Ninety percent of the time, I'm not.

I've been thinking about you a lot lately. Its hard. Its hard to get through days like this. Even if only for a moment...it takes a lot for me to get through it. It comes and goes.  More coming than going I'm sure.