Screwed

Do I stick with it or move on? Do I continue to be patient with my days, or discontinue this waiting game? Do I allow myself to feel like less of a person to appease someone else's time, or go forward with my own? Do I keep letting others create who I am,  or do I forgive, forget, and do whats best for me?

Is this life's punishment to me? Is it catching me up for everything I missed out on growing up?

No one warns you that things like this could happen, and even though I warned myself- I wasn't listening.