My test for class

Part of me is scarlet red
loving and caring
solid and daring
speaking mind, and my thought sharing.
But there is something different inside
blue like the ocean tides.
Open and loyal
fearless and free
quiet and deep, when alone just me.
Yet the two are, both true
all my own way
nothing like you.

Can my night get any worse? I just was led to believe that my sister was dead. No one would confirm or deny. What do u do in a situation like that? I even had that feeling, that u get, when someone that close to u dies. That blankness. It could only be understood by someone who has gone through it. It was very familiar to me. I wasnt sad, i wasnt mad, i wasnt happy, i wasnt anything. I was blank. Now what?