Did I wanna be where you are?

If there is a GOD in this world, he sure is trying his best to teach me so many lessons. When I fail at something, or I realize that I have made a mistake in decision making...the light bulb comes on...says...I should have seen this coming, I should of known it was going to happen, I should have knew better. 

So why cant this mind of mine be able to predict these things ahead of time? How come I cannot stop myself before its too late?? It feels as though these are lessons I've once learned, that I am learning again, but this time...its almost insulting to myself that I have to go through it all over again. 

What is my problem?

Things like this happen to me, day in and day out. I can be doing normal, everyday things, and turn some stupid small thing into nonsense. Most times, I am not aware of what these kinds of things are until after they happen. Almost like, I am only able to notice afterwards. Its very strange.

I'd give examples...but I am already perceived as nuts.

Take it or leave it, cuz I'm really leaving...

You dont know this now...but its what I do. For long as I can remember, its what I have done. So don't be surprised by it when it happens.

Its not because I am scared, or afraid of anything, or the possibility of anything.

Its because I have this crazyness going on up in my brain that makes me do this. Some sort of illness.

Yep...just kidding...I don't make up pretend "defects". :) Hahahahahaha...

Next time that you shoot...make sure that you aim.

Hanging on is easy, when you allow yourself to be placed into a situation you feel that you NEED. Little do you KNOW, 10 times out of 10, you don't NEED it. Its when you let go, that you KNOW you do not NEED a thing to be okay.

If you dont KNOW, you'll always NEED.

Being needy isnt very attractive.