Do you want to listen to it?

Waiting for someone is hard. Eventually you get to the point of questioning. 

"Is it worth it"? 

At which time is it okay to let go of something you've been committed to for so long? Just when you think you are stuck in the ways of the world that surround you...something great comes along and makes you wonder why you wasted so much time standing on the sides of it. 

I don't know exactly where this will lead me, and I don't know where I want it to go just yet...but I do know that it makes me happy. That's what matters right? 

I've gone through so much nonsense this past year in my life, and I am a thousand times sure that it is not over just yet. With that said...I am ready to be happy again. I am not waiting around. I am not going to be the girl who sits in the corner...full of sadness...waiting for my turn. I will not.

I have to save this

All this time, I had no idea what it was that I was missing. I thought that beings that I was the one playing catch up to the world- that I had to succumb to the fact that I was second best. Little did I know...it only took my not looking and not following...to find where I wanted to be.

This life may not have given me enough good days, and may have dealt me problems that an entire small continent wouldn't be able to handle, but...

I am so thankful for the little bit of good I have in my life. It makes the hard days so much more worth it. It gives me the ambition I need to keep going when I've got nonsense staring me in my face.

On a side note....39 days to go.