"I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day."

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Hey, by the way-

The real estate market. Are you kidding me?

Its no wonder that there are banks across the US filing for bankruptcy, going out of business, laying people off, etc. What did they think was going to happen? The man sitting in that pretty shiny high back office chair twenty years ago, had to of seen this coming, did he not? I try not to give my thoughts or opinions on things like this, because someone, somewhere wants to argue the point, but its hard not to.

If you were to call your bank right now, and ask them for your original documents on your mortgage, I guarantee you they would not be able to provide them. These documents, lay, covered in dust in some warehouse in the middle of no where. How can you hold someone to their loans without having complete, thorough paperwork. Do these banks not have competent lawyers on hand?

You are putting your name on the dotted line, beside someone in this crazy screwed up world. Having faith that they will come through on their end and be solid for years to come. Who in this world is solid?

Okay, sure, sometimes you have to take the chance. But when taking the chance, why wouldnt you cover all bases?

It pisses me off because now, because people are stupid. My time gets wasted because others don't know what they are doing. Ughhhh!!!

Monday, December 26, 2011

Couple of familiar faces, is gonna turn it all around?

Forgive me, but I don't understand how one can say that those around them make them into who they become. Your mind is on the inside for a reason. Its the only livelihood man has left to take upon himself and do as he pleases with. I will not agree with someone not being able to make their own choices, change the way they live, or live with themselves- and blame it on those around you. Thats BS.

Do not come at with nonsense.

Suck it up, admit your mistakes, take blame, and move on.

Like stones in your pocket, people try to weigh you down

Dont let them get the best of ya.

Otherwise, you may just be a weak as the ones throwing em around. We couldnt have that now could we?

Ain't it good to think about the weather...doesn't seem to be time for that anymore..

When all is said and done, as much as I complain, and whine, I wouldnt have it any other way. Reality can be a harsh awakening for anyone. You gotta learn to take the good with the bad, to know that regardless of what has happened, what the world has thrown in your hands, what lies outside the windows, things will be just fine.

And if all else fails, put some pretty sneakers on and face it head on.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

One day I will build a fountain...to make my own wish.

Things aren't always as they may seem. You may look at something with a naked eye, and be in awe, over how amazing it is. Little do you know...you're wrong.

Take myself for instance.

I am capable of prettying up myself and showing the world this strong, independent, beautiful person that I am. However, those people watching do not know about the details of my life. They don't know that I am filled with great sadness over the loss in my life. They don't know that I fight to get out of bed in the morning. They don't know that I only sleep three hours a night. They don't know that I get scared at each noise behind me. They don't know how stupid I am.

They don't know because I don't allow them too.

This goes for everything. Each and every person or thing has a story behind it. Before you throw judgements and quality amongst it, or at them, remember that.

The most decieving things in this crazy screwed up world are your very own eyes.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

How many first kisses can there be?

Love will make you do many silly things. But what's life without a little love and a little silliness?

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

My only goodbye.

You make me sad.

I wish I had the nerve or the confidence to say to you some of the things you should probably hear. I wish I wasnt so blind to the dark hole that you lead me to. I wish I wasnt so dependent on you being in my day. I wish you would leave my head and my thoughts and my mind. I wish I didnt love you.

Goodbye.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Well worth a smile.

The light of the night brought you
But how quick it was to turn
It showed my reasons to grieve you
I guess I was my only concern.

To be left guessing without you
It swallowed me whole
It took away every ounce of you
And left me with no control.

I leave my day with wanting you
In hopes of seeing your beautiful face
I awake sadden over the loss of you
To move on without embrace.

When does this feeling go away?