At least I careD

 I miss being a kid. I miss the ease of life. I miss when these crazy huge decisions weren't thrown into the mix of my world. I miss being innocent. 

I didn't have to worry about whether I loved him enough, appreciated him enough, or put enough greatness into his day. I didn't have to succumb to being let down each day. A while back, someone said to me-  "you let yourself down". I try to remember that line nowadays when I get disappointed. I've come to realize that- to put my destiny into someone else's hands, to put my hunger and hopes into another's free will...is just wrong. Only I am responsible for how my day turns out. I cannot blame others.  

I fight each day with myself to dredge on. To make it through another day. That tomorrow will be better. I say to myself- "don't give up today". The problem here is...it's getting tougher each day to recite those words to myself. It's even harder to force myself to listen. 

it can happen

At which point do you know when this needs to happen? When is it time to move on? Does the universe send a sign? Does it smack you in the face, making it hurt this time? 

There is a moment in every relationship you come across- when you are faced with this questionable reality. A moment that many fear. Some may even deny it while others forbid the very thought  from existing in their world. 

So what does that say about the ones that face this reality? Right or wrong, whether its destined or not. Are these people stronger for being able to see and acknowledge this, or are they stupid for allowing these thoughts to enter their mind.