Hello

It feels like I am failing. All around me. Failing.

Everytime it seems as thought things will turn out okay, I get bombarded with something else.

Now I know...I'm not the only one in the world with issues or problems. But- I am the only one in the world that has to live with my own issues and problems. That gives me all right to complain about it.

Will you be my wife?

Darkness follows home the girl

who doesnt know to look behind

shadows hide along beside her

in hopes it- she will not find.

The door opens boldly

as though its been waiting for her

to throw reminders into the air

to show what they once were.

Apprehension?

Now...I already know that I am crazy. I know that there is something mentally wrong with me. If no one had anything wrong with them...everyone would be normal, or perfect. What's the fun in that?

Anyways- I have been experiencing these weird "sightings" lately. Very weird. I haven't been able to chalk it up to any one reason just yet...but I'm still kind of off about what to link it to. 

While driving...I see things that aren't there...or that are there...but in different forms. For instance- a white box truck driving in front of me, I saw it as a white box flipping towards me...came to realize a few seconds later...it was only a white truck driving in front of me. For a moment there- I actually thought this huge white box was rolling towards me. My thoughts for reaction kicked in before my vision clarified what it was seeing. 

Again, (while driving)...I am driving down a back road, surrounded by woods. The tree line up ahead, going around a curve...I thought was the road. My steering turned towards the tree line, not the road. Luckily- it only took about three seconds to correct my judgement of sight...but what could have happened there? 

Lastly- a few mornings ago...I am driving down the road...a blue car is driving in front of me. I look down to grab my drink...and when I looked up- the blue car was speeding towards me...in my lane. I braked really hard, really fast. This only made me look like an ass in front of the cars behind me...because the blue car was still driving like normal in front of me. 

I have read a few books recently over the past couple weeks on the subject of- the brain, and in which way it works. Perceptions, and how they are created through different brain signals. So...maybe my mind is playing tricks on me. Two of these three incidents, I was wearing my prescribed glasses...so I know it wasn't an error in eyesight going on me...or maybe it was?

Throwbackin'

Funny how much my life has changed since these pictures. Who would have thought that the girl's face in these photos would have turned out this way. 

To help us through tomorrow

Things won't change without you. At least not the big important things. Sure, there will be sacrifice, there will be new ways of doing things...but all in all, I have complete confidence- things will be okay. Even when the hope and confidence is not there...you will be the very last to know.