so tomorrows gonna be a new day.

My conversation

So, I'd like to quote William Shakespeare, and sum up a conversation I had with an old friend today. Here goes:

The struts and frets his hours upon the stage
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.



Yep, thats about it.

Overwhelmed

Well, here goes my day so far...its midnight right now, so its pretty much over, but just thought id share a little bit of it..I started off, waking up, on time, and not being completely tired, or exhausted. Good start, right? Its cold out, so of course I forget my jacket, by the way, I got into an arguement before I leave the house, so of course Im in a bad, I dont give a crap mood. I get stuck behind a slow truck, which really made me mad. I get to work, I have three people coming at me with questions, before i have any idea whats going on yet. I back them off a little bit, and realize ive only been awake for an hour, and im already overwhelmed. I take a step back, re-evaluate. I get better. I drink my coffee. I relax. I make it through. I make up with the person i was argueing with that morning. I always fall back into that. I am a sucker for that. WTF. anyways, work goes by quick, i get done pretty much everything i set out to get done,and everything works out. its actually still light out when im done. I get home, i get to see my beautiful kids. All in all sounds like a good day considering what couldve happened had it not gotten better, right? Then why do I feel like im getting ready to go to bed unsatisfied by how my day went and ended?

Missing somebody

what ever happened
to someone i knew
what went wrong there
when was it through?

it mustve flown by
it shouldve hit me outright
why didnt i feel it
its completely from sight.

lit

My heart lights up for you
what have you done to me
whats so different today
what took me so long to see?

Family

So, my entire life, ive always thought that my family was the most important thing. i always assumed that if you keep ur family close, then no matter what happens, things will be ok. they are someone that will be there, always. i dont think that it matters whether they are ur brother, sister, dad, mom, or aunt. they are ur family. like it or not, thats who god gave u. but what happens if u find out there was this whole other part of u, a connection to u, urself, out there. something u never knew about. it makes u feel like u have missed out on a whole lot. and it sucks.

Closing

i drove past about twenty businesses that had closing or going outta business signs up today. all these places, that were once thriving places, are calling it quits. its crazy. you would think, that someone out there, or some kinda state funded program could help these small business keep afloat during this "recession", instead of feeding into these huge companies, that are responsible for putting the lil guys under. its hard to watch family businesses, that date back generations, knowing that theyve lasted all this time, and can't go on. what our country has done to this economy isnt from one company alone, and it isnt from just the fucked up ppl we put into our state and government offices. its everyone. i mean, sure, those politics know what they are doing when they screw things up and take advantage of it, but apparently, this free country of ours, us all together are the ones who vote these guys into those offices; i dunno how i get myself into these thoughts. i could write enough to fill an alphabet of encyclopedias about all this, but it just comes down to this..it gets scary when things like this surface.

Productive?

so, i went to bed last night thinking, tomorrow, im going to have a productive day. i woke up today. 11am. didnt do anything productive. spent my day pretty much outta the house, so didnt get anything done that i tell myself all week long that ill do when i have a day off. luckily though, i have tomorrow off too, so we'll see how that goes.

Noticing

you go through your day, you meet ppl, you see ppl you may already know, or you just think about someone, and no matter what, theres always an impression u get from that person. good or bad. it might not be a first impression, but its an impression none the less. its the great perk you get from having your own mind. so heres what my impressions were from one person today. i came to realize this person was very quiet, and loud all at once. very scared and angry. this person was someone who holds things in that they are afraid will hurt them if they show it to others. easily embarrassed, with the highest self perception and the highest level of being conceded. but that isnt all. this person was also a great person. loyal, and kind, with a big heart, that you would have never knew about unless you noticed. ive known this person for a while. i never really stopped to notice the qualities and the flaws of this person. i always held respect for this person, but to a certain point. it just goes to prove, that you dont know who someone really is unless u let urself know, or notice. when you go through your day and are unconcience about anyone else, u miss a lot. just think of how much you missed today, or yesterday. the ppl you dont give a second thought about could be the greatest person ull ever meet, or end up being someone you wished you never knew. but you wont find any of this out without noticing.

Tell em to kiss ur..

its funny how ppl u talk to, or ppl uve talked to in the past, sometimes forget all about u. its almost like, they talk to u when they dont have anyone else to talk to, but the minute they have another person to talk to, they just completely skip over you. this person, could be a best friend, or just an aquaintance. it doesnt matter. everyone does it. im sure ive done it. its just crazy to think that, this person, ur having a conversation with is most likely going to ignore you for a while now that theyve gotten to talk to u, and caught up on everything. almost like when u dont want to go to that annoying family members house, so u avoid it for a long time, and finally have to go, and afterwards, its like- well at least i dont have to do this again for a while. its inconsiderate, and cowardly. everyone has those qualities at some points. everyone. even me.