Dear Daniel

Today-

You've made me feel worthless. Throughout the past few months, I have begun to belittle myself to suffice you and your opinions of how things are supposed to be.

You have made me feel ugly. Inside and out. I- right this very moment, feel ugly. You have given me no other inkling that I should feel otherwise. You have made this extremely clear to me. In your eyes, I am ugly.

You have made me feel unwanted. You have turned your back many times when my back needed yours. You have looked passed my sadness and pretended it didn't exist. You have chosen so many other options before ever thinking of choosing me.

You have made me feel stupid. You have taken my feelings and turned them into mud. You have called me a baby when I was sad. You told me I was a complainer when I felt ill. You  have closed your eyes at the mere thought of having to listen to my "ramble".

You have made me feel unappreciated. You have taken for granted the very things I do to make you happy. You have taken my hand and dropped it when it no longer satisfied your needs in that moment. You have taken from me so much I cannot get back and never once have you said thank you.

You have made me feel hopeless. You have heard my struggles and still continue to bypass them. You have made excuses as to why things will never change. You have told me you cannot help this. You have promised me the world, but I have yet to see this world in which you speak of.

You have made me feel lonely. You have sat beside me unbeknownst to you though...I was beside you. You have turned around when I faced you. You have shown a desire for something great when I was there the whole time.


One day- you will wish that you hadn't made me feel worthless. You will see me shine, but will no longer be in my light.

One day- you will wish you hadn't made me feel ugly. When you are facing this dark and harsh world alone, you will look back and see how beautiful I really am. By then, it will be too late.

One day- you will wish that you hadn't made me feel stupid. There will come a day when you will need my guidance and knowledge. This will have already run out for you.

One day- you will wish that you hadn't made me feel unappreciated. When you are staring at an empty bed at night, you will hurt for me to be there. You will miss me when I am not there.

One day- you will wish that you hadn't made me feel hopeless. When my dreams are coming true and you are only a bystander, you will yearn to be a part of my greatness. I won't be so kind as to share it anymore though.

One day- you will wish that you hadn't made me feel lonely. When you are reaching out for a hand to hold, someone to get you through the day- I will be holding my own hands. I will have no spare hands left for you.